i wanna take you with me baby lets just fucking overdose

i don’t know what to say, today.
but i guess that is how we had always been,
with lips steeped in silence
soft bodies folding over
spilling
easily
pooling around
our unspoken conversations

this is the norm, to talk about
things we could talk about
and to think about what i want to show you today
whether you would laugh at me again
please, laugh at me
i am but a clown waiting for the tightrope to snap

does anyone else see this?
the pretence of a joyous departure
the idea of adventure
the blanket globe
our assumed future
where are we going? does anyone have a map?

14 hours
13,060 kilometers
5 more years
you, and me
a westbound train

all you had to do
was say you never want to stop dancing
to our off-beat liquid love
and all you had to do
was live like you wanted to die
like tomorrow we were going to fall off the earth
like the flat-earthers were right

if only —
all we had to do —
why couldn’t we —
if you were —
why —

I have questions in my stomach
where our butterflies took flight
but I still vomit wings into the bathroom sink
I want to know everything
and you are an overdue library book

all you had to do was —