– For the constellations and craters that call my face “Home”.
you litter my face like stardust
in conversations with the mirror
there you are, shining bright red
like you are signalling to the world
“come land here!”
but really, you’ve accomplished the opposite.
we have been through a lot together,
like that time you showed up on my nose
on the day of our class photo
you were always there for me
in spite of the Hiruscar and Proactiv
in spite of the face scrubs
and Shiseido sheet masks
you were just always there, you stubborn trooper.
when you and menstruation came to dance
it was always so mesmerising
every sensual rake my nails brought across you
menstruation reminded us that
you will always be a part of me
nevermind the itching
nevermind the redness
nevermind the constant reminders from my mother to slather more chemicals on my face
you are the companion no one asked for
you are reason for every “You’d be so pretty if”
you are why every morning is a constant battle to feel beautiful
but jokes on you, acne,
because i am beautiful.
my reflection is not the enemy
and neither are you.
the enemy is within me-
and i have emerged victorious.
Performed at Artistry Cafè for the Spoke and Bird Open Mic, organized by Stephanie Dogfoot. Performance found here.
I used to think that I would want to be a butterfly.
Because I wanted to be beautiful.
I watched as a pair of wings fluttered to the ground, the body twitched and it moved no more.
A caterpillar I had in Primary School was released into the garden,
And it was eaten by a Mynah
That was eaten by Auntie Umi’s cat
Which was killed by a man named Set
Who hadn’t been paying attention to the road.
Continue reading “Papillon”
Happy Birthday, Friend.
“You’re still here”.
Continue reading “Yesterday’s Sunny Sky”
It’s getting colder and colder and now it’s hard to breathe. My words are just my breath and writing is just bleeding.
Let me take a rest.
I’m going on haitus for an indefinite amount of time, sorry guys. But don’t worry, I’d be back!
There’s Something That You Should Know
Before we begin I’d like to tell you all that I am transgender. I knew I was male ever since I was fifteen and I know that seems a little young, a little bit too soon to know for sure that this isn’t a phase but I could also say that about everyone in this room, so. You’re never too young to know what you prefer to be called.
Continue reading “Before We Begin”